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Porrim Maryam ([personal profile] fusshionable) wrote in [community profile] thearena2016-06-24 10:53 am

[closed] one more time with feeling

Who| Porrim and Nick
What| One last meeting
Where| The streets of the Capitol
When| Backdated to early morning, day 3 of the final battle.
Warnings/Notes| Language, will update.

Porrim’s second night in the Capitol is rough; even surrounded by the deep, even breathing of her unit, she’s jumpy, over-alert to every noise, every buzz of radio static, and she feels the strangest sense of relief when it’s her turn to take guard duty. She sits near the door of the building her unit has taken refuge in, gun propped on her lap, eyes sharp despite her exhaustion, keeping watch for anything out of the ordinary—movement, sounds, anything at all that might signal danger.

She loses track of time easily, the minutes sliding together in the heavy stillness of the witching hour; she’s beginning to think that maybe her watch will pass uneventfully when she spies movement on the far side of the street. Her instincts kick in immediately; Porrim is on her feet with her rifle on her shoulder before she can even think, but she says nothing; she looms in the doorway to the bombed-out storefront with her gun aimed squarely at the human-shaped shadow, until it’s just past her and she can identify it as a Capitol soldier. Her blood runs cold, and then hotter than ever, and she lets herself step out of the shadows so she’s behind him, their steps synchronized so as to minimize sound. It isn’t until she gets right up close that she lets herself say anything.

“Halt, if you know what’s good for you.”
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-09-17 12:57 pm (UTC)(link)
That's just about the most gentle thing anyone has ever done with Nick. He's honestly not sure how to react, and it's obvious his brain is stalling as he watches her. He doesn't dare move his hand away, either, not until the moment has well and truly passed.

"I don't know about you, but I don't know anyone who goes around kissing hands unless they're getting serious about something." Although it might be too soon to joke around about that. She's taking this all so well, it's not impossible for him to think she might be luring him here to kill him.

He just hopes she rides his dick first.

"Look, the world as we know it is probably coming to an end. This shit is bleak. God knows which side is gonna win and we're all going to come out worse for wear anyway." He takes his hand out of hers, reaching up to brush his fingers over her cheek. It's the second most gentle thing his hands have experienced. "And it might be kinda nice to put some good in this shitty world."
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-09-18 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
This whole situation is an absolute turn from everything Nick knows. He feels like his life has gone through so many stages of flipping around and around, but he finally feels like he's actually learned something from it. He's tired, he feels older than he ever has, he's been afraid of dying for a long time, but now he's afraid for things beyond death. Torture, brain-washing, avoxxing and worse, he's more scared that it could happen to Porrim than he is about himself.

A while ago, he resigned himself to the idea that she was either safe in District Thirteen or that she died long ago. Now she's here, alive and it's a world of opportunities he'd stopped letting himself consider.

"Hey," He starts, hand still on her face. His expression softens from his usual, smug look and he seems genuinely anxious about what he's about to say. "I meant what I said, you know. About fucking up when I let you go- and I'm not just saying it to get in your pants, I just." He shrugs, then he grunts and pulls his hand back to himself so he can look from her to the ground.

"I've never loved someone like I love you. And I actually give a shit about what happens to you after this, but I have no idea what's going to happen after this."
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-09-24 01:55 am (UTC)(link)
Nick came here for a quickie, really, but he's been mulling it over since he saw her. Hell, he's mean mulling it over since he got here, since he got dragged into all of this and had to take a good, hard look at himself and his shitty values. He hates the life he has now, he hates the lonely, empty feeling he gets from it. Porrim is basically a ray of light in a shit storm for him.

He doesn't want to put her on a pedestal or covet her in a way that seems insincere, but he doesn't want to treat her like shit and do her dirty again. If he can fix this one thing in his life, maybe things won't be so bad.

He's not expecting mutual feelings, he's not expecting Porrim to reach out and lift his chin. It's hard to meet her eyes but he tries, and god does he look tired. It's easier to see that the smug, cocky person he's trying to portray is just there to hide his exhaustion.

"Really..?" He can't help it, his brows furrow in confusion. His hands move to encompass hers, rubbing soft circles over her skin. "I'm not gonna pretend that's something I don't want to hear, sugar. 'Cuz I do.. a lot. But you know you can do better than me. Way better."
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-10-02 04:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Nick isn't particularly disheartened to hear that she knows she can do better. He wasn't kidding when he said it and he wasn't saying it for pity, so he's relieved that she's honest. She's not about to pretend he's a stand up guy and she still wants him while understanding that it's a damn stupid thing to want.

He lets himself smile in return, soothed by her fingers on his cheeks. He rarely feels a touch so gentle, and it's been a damn long time. Probably long before the apocalypse.

He returns the favour by sliding his hands up her thighs. It's not necessarily sexual, but it's definitely intimate.

"Maybe this is a dead-end question but, what now?"
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-12-30 01:05 pm (UTC)(link)
For the first time ever, the prospect of sex almost makes Nick nervous. This time around, there are strings attached. Porrim is damn near the only good thing in his life and the only thing he has to look forward to. There's no home for him, there's no family and his friends are mostly dead. It's a lot riding on one person, and Nick is so good at fucking things up.

"Whaddaya wanna do? Go ride a bicycle through the park? Feed the ducks?" He hates that he can't hide the nervous twinge that flickers in his voice. "Are you sure you want your last memories to be, I dunno." He just gestures vaguely at his crotch.