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[closed] one more time with feeling
Who| Porrim and Nick
What| One last meeting
Where| The streets of the Capitol
When| Backdated to early morning, day 3 of the final battle.
Warnings/Notes| Language, will update.
Porrim’s second night in the Capitol is rough; even surrounded by the deep, even breathing of her unit, she’s jumpy, over-alert to every noise, every buzz of radio static, and she feels the strangest sense of relief when it’s her turn to take guard duty. She sits near the door of the building her unit has taken refuge in, gun propped on her lap, eyes sharp despite her exhaustion, keeping watch for anything out of the ordinary—movement, sounds, anything at all that might signal danger.
She loses track of time easily, the minutes sliding together in the heavy stillness of the witching hour; she’s beginning to think that maybe her watch will pass uneventfully when she spies movement on the far side of the street. Her instincts kick in immediately; Porrim is on her feet with her rifle on her shoulder before she can even think, but she says nothing; she looms in the doorway to the bombed-out storefront with her gun aimed squarely at the human-shaped shadow, until it’s just past her and she can identify it as a Capitol soldier. Her blood runs cold, and then hotter than ever, and she lets herself step out of the shadows so she’s behind him, their steps synchronized so as to minimize sound. It isn’t until she gets right up close that she lets herself say anything.
“Halt, if you know what’s good for you.”
What| One last meeting
Where| The streets of the Capitol
When| Backdated to early morning, day 3 of the final battle.
Warnings/Notes| Language, will update.
Porrim’s second night in the Capitol is rough; even surrounded by the deep, even breathing of her unit, she’s jumpy, over-alert to every noise, every buzz of radio static, and she feels the strangest sense of relief when it’s her turn to take guard duty. She sits near the door of the building her unit has taken refuge in, gun propped on her lap, eyes sharp despite her exhaustion, keeping watch for anything out of the ordinary—movement, sounds, anything at all that might signal danger.
She loses track of time easily, the minutes sliding together in the heavy stillness of the witching hour; she’s beginning to think that maybe her watch will pass uneventfully when she spies movement on the far side of the street. Her instincts kick in immediately; Porrim is on her feet with her rifle on her shoulder before she can even think, but she says nothing; she looms in the doorway to the bombed-out storefront with her gun aimed squarely at the human-shaped shadow, until it’s just past her and she can identify it as a Capitol soldier. Her blood runs cold, and then hotter than ever, and she lets herself step out of the shadows so she’s behind him, their steps synchronized so as to minimize sound. It isn’t until she gets right up close that she lets herself say anything.
“Halt, if you know what’s good for you.”
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He's not sure how he feels about it, but he knows damn well how he feels doesn't really matter in the long run. He can play along, he can shoot people he doesn't give a damn about. He'll try to figure out how to make the best of what happens in the long run, he'll appeal to either side if he needs to. Brainwashing barely factors in, even if he feels a strong pull toward the Capitol.
The darkness of the eye shield makes it hard to identify people at the best of times, but voices make it easy. He hears the sound of feet behind him and he knows he may or may not be fucked unless he's smooth. Then he hears that voice, and he's not sure if being smooth is going to save him. Those weren't good terms they ended on, but it's workable.
"I think we both know I don't know what's good for me, sugar." His hands are off his weapons and in the air, just so she knows he's compliant. He's well aware that she might just shoot him out of spite, but he can hope for the best.
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She doesn't even think, when she first approaches, that the soldier might be anyone she knows. Sure, it's a distinct possibility, but the helmets keep everything so anonymous that it's better not to make assumptions. To be honest, when his voice hits her ears, her first instinct is just to shoot him anyway. Not fatally, perhaps, but enough to hurt him like he hurt her.
But she holds back. That would only draw attention, and besides, she's distracted by the rising tide of emotion that's threatening to overtake her. She hates it. If she could write emotion out of the equation entirely, she would, but she can't. She's tried. It doesn't work.
When she finally finds the words to reply, her voice is still even, but a little thick.
"That's true. I should shoot you, you know. You're the enemy." She lowers the muzzle of her rifle, just a little, just enough so it's pointed at his knees and not his heart. "Turn around. Slow."
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So here they are. He didn't exactly get to pick a side, but it doesn't really matter now. He's not sure she'd listen to him explain the logic, and it's risky business right now anyway. Who knows what the Capitol is listening in on or watching, as usual.
On the tip of his tongue is a quip about how shooting him won't make her feel any better, but he swallows it down. Instead, he exhales and puts all the goddamn salt he can muster into the sound, then turns slowly as requested until he's facing her with his hands still up. She can probably see herself reflected in his helmet, but she won't see his face.
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"How are you here?" she whispers, partly to disguise the tremble in her voice, partly so as not to draw attention from anyone in her unit who might still be awake. "It doesn't make any fucking sense." None of this does. This whole war. There was a time when it seemed the only logical course of action; some days, she just isn't sure.
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He remains perfectly still when she approaches. He's very accustomed to sudden movements leading to a line of bullets in his direction. When all she does is push his visor up, he can't even pretend not to be confused, so he quirks a brow at her.
"You don't think they'd use an unlimited supply of microwave-ready goons to win their war? C'mon, don't act dumber than you look, dollface." He's toeing a dangerous line with that kind of sass, but he's pretty sure any information he has is more valuable than shooting off his balls. "Didn't think I'd be seeing you with a gun in your hands, I gotta say."
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"Yeah? Well, rest assured, honey, I know how to use it." More than she'd have liked, but it's become a necessary skill. "But I don't want to shoot you, if I don't have to." The muzzle is still leveled at him, straight at his heart. God, there is a certain part of her that would derive immense satisfaction from shooting him. Not fatally, but enough to hurt. But she doesn't want to, not really. Maybe there's still a soft spot for him in the cold, hard place that she used to call a heart.
"So the question is, can I trust you? Can we...just talk? Or are you going to turn on me the second I lower my gun?"
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But the garb. The white uniform. Like a special officer. And the helmet? Christ. "I'm going to take this off." His voice is steady and his hands move slowly, keeping his eyes fixed on her as he slides the entire helmet off to reveal some tousled, sweat drenched hair. His face is patchy from an increased lack of grooming and self maintenance and his eyes seem distant, as if not entirely focused on her. They're veering upward, discreetly, where he can see a Capitol sniper in the distance.
He's fully aware that her finger is on the trigger, but he doesn't exactly have the time to beg permission from her. He moves fast, like he's defending against a witch, his gun is out and firing before he can verbalise a justification for it. He's just banking on her hesitating to shoot him long enough for her to realise what he's doing.
Deep down, he knows damn well he'd much rather get shot by her if it means he doesn't have to watch her get pegged down in front of him.
Hopefully the thud of a sniper falling from his post behind her will do the talking for him, so he'll just cautiously raise a brow.
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She doesn't have time to question it. She doesn't even have time to aim her gun or find the trigger again before she realizes what he's doing. Porrim sucks in a breath, a sharp gasp, and squeezes her eyes shut, thinking he's decided to take her out without bothering with playing any more games. Maybe the Capitol brainwashed him better than she'd anticipated. It's not until the last of the gunshot fades from her hearing and she catches the all-too-familiar sound of a body hitting the ground that she realizes exactly what's happened.
Porrim gapes up at Nick in a manner that lacks her usual dignity, her gun falling from her hands to dangle at her side from its strap in favor of winding her arms around his armored shoulders.
"You never stop surprising me," she whispers, not bothering to check if the gunshot woke up any of her unit. She doesn't really care, right now.
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It's only when the body drops that he drops his gun to the ground and realises that the sharp pain had been a creative addition from his mind and nothing more. He watches her gun dangle to her side and watches her approach with something akin to a deer in the headlights expression. It's a funny look on a guy who tries to keep a smarmy, unimpressed demeanor at all times.
The expression fades as she winds her arms around his shoulders, replaced by a wry smile on his face. "Is that good or bad?" He asks, winding his arm around her waist and nudging her closer. There's a lot of things bubbling up under the surface. He has things on the tip of his tongue that he wants to say, but they're fucking hard to say.
"Well, if you're expecting surprises, I'll keep going." He flicks his tongue over his bottom lip, buying a little time to get out with it. "I'm sorry. For being an asshole."
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"Good," she assures him. It's true. He's always kept her on her toes, and maybe that's what a girl like her needs. A reprieve from monotony.
There's no way this will pan out well, she reminds herself. This is still a war, emotions be damned.
But still, when he's apologizing, earnestly apologizing, it's hard to let that be her guiding factor. Her brows raise high enough that they threaten to disappear beneath her bangs—the rest of her hair's been cropped into shoulder-length waves—and she lets out a sound of incredulous approval.
"Definitely didn't see that one coming." She wants to kiss him so fucking badly. "I forgive you." Her throat is unbearably tight, thanks to the steadily-growing lump that's lodged there.
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Now that his apology has been accepted, his smarmy look returns and his hand braces against her waist and he tips her backward, one arm holding her in place while the other gently slips around the gun she's holding so he can hold it up defensively. Just in case someone gets the idea that they're vulnerable right now.
When they're nose to nose and he's leaning over her, he gives her one brief, genuine smile before he smirks again. "What did a girl like you do to get stuck with a guy like me?" He doesn't give her a chance to answer, his lips are closing around hers for a soft kiss.
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All she really cares about right now is him, leaning over her and saying something witty, and then his mouth is on hers and Porrim feels something awaken in her that she hasn't felt in a damn long time. She kisses him back without restraint, because for all she knows, this could be the last time. She has to make this one count.
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It's hard to care about anything, in the moment. It could be the last time, for all he knows. He might never see her again after today, this could be his last chance to do something fucking decent with his life. He lets himself lose focus for a long, long moment. All he's thinking about is her lips, the way she tastes, the way she smells and the fact that she's here.
Of course, he had to come out of it eventually, and he does. He pulls away slowly, with great reluctance. "We might wanna find a better place to catch up, cupcake."
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"Yeah...yeah." She glances around, formulating a plan. "Meet me in that storefront over there—" she points across the street, just out of direct view from where her squad is taking refuge— "in five minutes. I'm going to pass off my watch."
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He glances toward the storefront and nods slowly, taking a step back and picking his helmet back up. "It's a date." He says with a smirk, sliding the helmet back on over his head so he can go back to blending it. "Guess I'll go look like I'm doing something."
And with that, he wanders off and makes a round before he winds back to that storefront she mentioned. There's a small twist of fear in his gut, wondering if he'll come back and find her dead or if he let her go and now he'll never see her again. He swallows it down and steps through the large hole in the broken glass, padding into the store to look around for her.
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When Nick enters their meeting place, he'll find her in the back of the store, sitting on the sofa that was clearly meant for husbands waiting while their wives tried on clothes, or vice versa. She's cleared the rubble and bits of fallen plaster from it, and stripped off her armor and weaponry, sitting in her D13 regulation shirt and pants and boots.
"I see you didn't get shot," she observes, barely concealing the way her face lights up when she sees him step through the broken window.
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The break is welcome, and he still can't believe his luck at having found his girl in a place like this and a time like this. He won't even delve into the fact that winning her back was a miracle on its own.
He's an ominous figure, walking into the store. He's still in full Peacekeeper garb and his helmet is still on until the moment he's deep enough into the store to feel safe removing it. When he does, he throws it onto the floor with little regard for it, revealing the smug expression she's probably seen a million times before.
"I can't confirm or deny anything." He looks her up and down before he takes a perch on the arm of the sofa, giving himself a boundary. "Did you tell your buddies you're about to party with a Storm Trooper?"
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"No, but mostly because I have no idea what a Storm Trooper is."
She draws her legs up beneath her on the couch, making herself a little more comfortable. "But I told them I was going off on my own for a little bit. They get it." She hopes, anyway. This could have serious consequences, but she's learned that life is too short and precious not to take chances when she has them.
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It's all surreal. Dangerously surreal. It's like the first, horrible moments of soberness when you realise the world is still running while you're passed out on the floor. Shit could go wrong in a second, in a thousand different ways, and for the first time since he got here he's actually fucking scared.
But he's not gonna show it.
"Oh right, of course." He says, plainly. "I told all my subordinates that I'm about to go fuck a rebel. Totally cool with it too. Kinda don't think they knew what I meant by fuck, though." He winks at her. He's smooth.
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Porrim reaches out and takes the hand that's pointing at her, holding it with both of hers. She's missed these hands; big, strong, and callused. Without preamble, she bends her head to press a kiss into the center of his palm.
"Oh, is that what you think is happening here?"
She's joking, probably. She has to give him shit. It's in the contract.
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"I don't know about you, but I don't know anyone who goes around kissing hands unless they're getting serious about something." Although it might be too soon to joke around about that. She's taking this all so well, it's not impossible for him to think she might be luring him here to kill him.
He just hopes she rides his dick first.
"Look, the world as we know it is probably coming to an end. This shit is bleak. God knows which side is gonna win and we're all going to come out worse for wear anyway." He takes his hand out of hers, reaching up to brush his fingers over her cheek. It's the second most gentle thing his hands have experienced. "And it might be kinda nice to put some good in this shitty world."
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Her eyelashes flutter slightly as she feels his fingers on her cheek; just like he wasn't expecting her to kiss his hand, she's not at all expecting him to touch her so tenderly. It's never been the way they are around each other. Suddenly, Porrim's throat feels a little tight.
"Yeah," she says, her voice barely above a whisper. "That'd be nice."
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A while ago, he resigned himself to the idea that she was either safe in District Thirteen or that she died long ago. Now she's here, alive and it's a world of opportunities he'd stopped letting himself consider.
"Hey," He starts, hand still on her face. His expression softens from his usual, smug look and he seems genuinely anxious about what he's about to say. "I meant what I said, you know. About fucking up when I let you go- and I'm not just saying it to get in your pants, I just." He shrugs, then he grunts and pulls his hand back to himself so he can look from her to the ground.
"I've never loved someone like I love you. And I actually give a shit about what happens to you after this, but I have no idea what's going to happen after this."
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"I love you, too. And I can't really say what's going to happen. I can't make any promises. But if by some slim chance we both get through this alive...I don't want to let you slip through my fingers again. I...I can't let that happen. I want to be with you."
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He doesn't want to put her on a pedestal or covet her in a way that seems insincere, but he doesn't want to treat her like shit and do her dirty again. If he can fix this one thing in his life, maybe things won't be so bad.
He's not expecting mutual feelings, he's not expecting Porrim to reach out and lift his chin. It's hard to meet her eyes but he tries, and god does he look tired. It's easier to see that the smug, cocky person he's trying to portray is just there to hide his exhaustion.
"Really..?" He can't help it, his brows furrow in confusion. His hands move to encompass hers, rubbing soft circles over her skin. "I'm not gonna pretend that's something I don't want to hear, sugar. 'Cuz I do.. a lot. But you know you can do better than me. Way better."
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Her fingers on his chin move to brush her thumb across his cheek, feeling his stubble underneath her fingertips.
"Really." Her mouth twists into a wry little smile. "I know I can. But the funny thing is, I don't want to. I just want you. In a weird, twisted way...being with you makes me happier than anything."
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He lets himself smile in return, soothed by her fingers on his cheeks. He rarely feels a touch so gentle, and it's been a damn long time. Probably long before the apocalypse.
He returns the favour by sliding his hands up her thighs. It's not necessarily sexual, but it's definitely intimate.
"Maybe this is a dead-end question but, what now?"
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"Right now?" One finger strokes lightly under his chin. "I think you and I should make some memories in case it's our last chance."
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"Whaddaya wanna do? Go ride a bicycle through the park? Feed the ducks?" He hates that he can't hide the nervous twinge that flickers in his voice. "Are you sure you want your last memories to be, I dunno." He just gestures vaguely at his crotch.
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"They're not going to be my last memories. And even if they were? Well, that wouldn't be so bad."