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Porrim Maryam ([personal profile] fusshionable) wrote in [community profile] thearena2016-06-24 10:53 am

[closed] one more time with feeling

Who| Porrim and Nick
What| One last meeting
Where| The streets of the Capitol
When| Backdated to early morning, day 3 of the final battle.
Warnings/Notes| Language, will update.

Porrim’s second night in the Capitol is rough; even surrounded by the deep, even breathing of her unit, she’s jumpy, over-alert to every noise, every buzz of radio static, and she feels the strangest sense of relief when it’s her turn to take guard duty. She sits near the door of the building her unit has taken refuge in, gun propped on her lap, eyes sharp despite her exhaustion, keeping watch for anything out of the ordinary—movement, sounds, anything at all that might signal danger.

She loses track of time easily, the minutes sliding together in the heavy stillness of the witching hour; she’s beginning to think that maybe her watch will pass uneventfully when she spies movement on the far side of the street. Her instincts kick in immediately; Porrim is on her feet with her rifle on her shoulder before she can even think, but she says nothing; she looms in the doorway to the bombed-out storefront with her gun aimed squarely at the human-shaped shadow, until it’s just past her and she can identify it as a Capitol soldier. Her blood runs cold, and then hotter than ever, and she lets herself step out of the shadows so she’s behind him, their steps synchronized so as to minimize sound. It isn’t until she gets right up close that she lets herself say anything.

“Halt, if you know what’s good for you.”
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2016-06-27 05:27 pm (UTC)(link)
This experience has been rough from the get go. First Nick was home, then here, then in Arenas and everyone was out to get him and then, he's not even sure what happened. He doesn't think he went home, it feels more like he's been asleep for months. Now he's awake and they whack him in a uniform, put a gun in his hands and tell him to protect the Capitol from Rebel scum.

He's not sure how he feels about it, but he knows damn well how he feels doesn't really matter in the long run. He can play along, he can shoot people he doesn't give a damn about. He'll try to figure out how to make the best of what happens in the long run, he'll appeal to either side if he needs to. Brainwashing barely factors in, even if he feels a strong pull toward the Capitol.

The darkness of the eye shield makes it hard to identify people at the best of times, but voices make it easy. He hears the sound of feet behind him and he knows he may or may not be fucked unless he's smooth. Then he hears that voice, and he's not sure if being smooth is going to save him. Those weren't good terms they ended on, but it's workable.

"I think we both know I don't know what's good for me, sugar." His hands are off his weapons and in the air, just so she knows he's compliant. He's well aware that she might just shoot him out of spite, but he can hope for the best.
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2016-06-27 06:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Nick isn't sure where he imagined Porrim on the scale of Capitol loyalty or Rebellion. Sleeping with Tributes didn't seem particularly rebellious because, let's face it, he's smokin'. There were other personality traits that made him suspect that she might not be completely in line with the Capiol way of thinking.

So here they are. He didn't exactly get to pick a side, but it doesn't really matter now. He's not sure she'd listen to him explain the logic, and it's risky business right now anyway. Who knows what the Capitol is listening in on or watching, as usual.

On the tip of his tongue is a quip about how shooting him won't make her feel any better, but he swallows it down. Instead, he exhales and puts all the goddamn salt he can muster into the sound, then turns slowly as requested until he's facing her with his hands still up. She can probably see herself reflected in his helmet, but she won't see his face.
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2016-09-25 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
This whole situation isn't really like him, in the long run. It's not beyond him to take up arms on the "wrong" side of things, but he isn't particularly enjoying being in the good graces of the Capitol. The pros don't really outweigh the cons. The luxury isn't really enough to make putting his life on the line like a dancing puppet worth it.

He remains perfectly still when she approaches. He's very accustomed to sudden movements leading to a line of bullets in his direction. When all she does is push his visor up, he can't even pretend not to be confused, so he quirks a brow at her.

"You don't think they'd use an unlimited supply of microwave-ready goons to win their war? C'mon, don't act dumber than you look, dollface." He's toeing a dangerous line with that kind of sass, but he's pretty sure any information he has is more valuable than shooting off his balls. "Didn't think I'd be seeing you with a gun in your hands, I gotta say."
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-01-22 12:58 pm (UTC)(link)
There's so much about this situation that so isn't Nick. He's used to wastelands, life or death situations, tenuous trust between himself and anyone he happens upon and he's more than used to guns. Guns in his hands, guns pointed at him. That's his life.

But the garb. The white uniform. Like a special officer. And the helmet? Christ. "I'm going to take this off." His voice is steady and his hands move slowly, keeping his eyes fixed on her as he slides the entire helmet off to reveal some tousled, sweat drenched hair. His face is patchy from an increased lack of grooming and self maintenance and his eyes seem distant, as if not entirely focused on her. They're veering upward, discreetly, where he can see a Capitol sniper in the distance.

He's fully aware that her finger is on the trigger, but he doesn't exactly have the time to beg permission from her. He moves fast, like he's defending against a witch, his gun is out and firing before he can verbalise a justification for it. He's just banking on her hesitating to shoot him long enough for her to realise what he's doing.

Deep down, he knows damn well he'd much rather get shot by her if it means he doesn't have to watch her get pegged down in front of him.

Hopefully the thud of a sniper falling from his post behind her will do the talking for him, so he'll just cautiously raise a brow.
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-01-28 04:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Even when he's aiming and firing his gun, he's cringing. He can already feel the pain of a bullet shooting into him, even if he can't discern where its been fired into him.

It's only when the body drops that he drops his gun to the ground and realises that the sharp pain had been a creative addition from his mind and nothing more. He watches her gun dangle to her side and watches her approach with something akin to a deer in the headlights expression. It's a funny look on a guy who tries to keep a smarmy, unimpressed demeanor at all times.

The expression fades as she winds her arms around his shoulders, replaced by a wry smile on his face. "Is that good or bad?" He asks, winding his arm around her waist and nudging her closer. There's a lot of things bubbling up under the surface. He has things on the tip of his tongue that he wants to say, but they're fucking hard to say.

"Well, if you're expecting surprises, I'll keep going." He flicks his tongue over his bottom lip, buying a little time to get out with it. "I'm sorry. For being an asshole."
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-02-07 12:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Nick has made many, many mistakes in his life. Very few he'd ever be willing to admit, of course. However, when you feel something like this and it's real and it's raw, you can only hide from it so long. You can only pretend you were just missing a perfect set of T&A before you start realising you're aching for something else.

Now that his apology has been accepted, his smarmy look returns and his hand braces against her waist and he tips her backward, one arm holding her in place while the other gently slips around the gun she's holding so he can hold it up defensively. Just in case someone gets the idea that they're vulnerable right now.

When they're nose to nose and he's leaning over her, he gives her one brief, genuine smile before he smirks again. "What did a girl like you do to get stuck with a guy like me?" He doesn't give her a chance to answer, his lips are closing around hers for a soft kiss.
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-02-18 03:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Nick's uniform has got to be the ugliest, most uncomfortable thing in the world. He's no stranger to wearing white, but it feels wrong in this context. It feels like he's wearing a gaudy target, especially right now.

It's hard to care about anything, in the moment. It could be the last time, for all he knows. He might never see her again after today, this could be his last chance to do something fucking decent with his life. He lets himself lose focus for a long, long moment. All he's thinking about is her lips, the way she tastes, the way she smells and the fact that she's here.

Of course, he had to come out of it eventually, and he does. He pulls away slowly, with great reluctance. "We might wanna find a better place to catch up, cupcake."
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-03-13 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
If there's one thing Nick is good at, it's knowing his odds. Odds are, if it gets back to the Capitol that he's standing around smooching Rebels and helping kill people on "his" side, he probably won't be around to do it much longer.

He glances toward the storefront and nods slowly, taking a step back and picking his helmet back up. "It's a date." He says with a smirk, sliding the helmet back on over his head so he can go back to blending it. "Guess I'll go look like I'm doing something."

And with that, he wanders off and makes a round before he winds back to that storefront she mentioned. There's a small twist of fear in his gut, wondering if he'll come back and find her dead or if he let her go and now he'll never see her again. He swallows it down and steps through the large hole in the broken glass, padding into the store to look around for her.
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-05-20 03:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Nick has nobody to communicate with when he stalks off to meet Porrim. Unless there was a particular sort of trap being laid, Peacekeeper grunts like him tended to patrol and kill with little to no guidance beyond those very simple instructions.

The break is welcome, and he still can't believe his luck at having found his girl in a place like this and a time like this. He won't even delve into the fact that winning her back was a miracle on its own.

He's an ominous figure, walking into the store. He's still in full Peacekeeper garb and his helmet is still on until the moment he's deep enough into the store to feel safe removing it. When he does, he throws it onto the floor with little regard for it, revealing the smug expression she's probably seen a million times before.

"I can't confirm or deny anything." He looks her up and down before he takes a perch on the arm of the sofa, giving himself a boundary. "Did you tell your buddies you're about to party with a Storm Trooper?"
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-08-19 02:51 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm gonna let you get away with that because I know it's because you're from a fucked up world and not because I'm old." He still points accusingly at her, daring her to try pull a line about him being old out of her ass now that he's set her up for it.

It's all surreal. Dangerously surreal. It's like the first, horrible moments of soberness when you realise the world is still running while you're passed out on the floor. Shit could go wrong in a second, in a thousand different ways, and for the first time since he got here he's actually fucking scared.

But he's not gonna show it.

"Oh right, of course." He says, plainly. "I told all my subordinates that I'm about to go fuck a rebel. Totally cool with it too. Kinda don't think they knew what I meant by fuck, though." He winks at her. He's smooth.
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-09-17 12:57 pm (UTC)(link)
That's just about the most gentle thing anyone has ever done with Nick. He's honestly not sure how to react, and it's obvious his brain is stalling as he watches her. He doesn't dare move his hand away, either, not until the moment has well and truly passed.

"I don't know about you, but I don't know anyone who goes around kissing hands unless they're getting serious about something." Although it might be too soon to joke around about that. She's taking this all so well, it's not impossible for him to think she might be luring him here to kill him.

He just hopes she rides his dick first.

"Look, the world as we know it is probably coming to an end. This shit is bleak. God knows which side is gonna win and we're all going to come out worse for wear anyway." He takes his hand out of hers, reaching up to brush his fingers over her cheek. It's the second most gentle thing his hands have experienced. "And it might be kinda nice to put some good in this shitty world."
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-09-18 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
This whole situation is an absolute turn from everything Nick knows. He feels like his life has gone through so many stages of flipping around and around, but he finally feels like he's actually learned something from it. He's tired, he feels older than he ever has, he's been afraid of dying for a long time, but now he's afraid for things beyond death. Torture, brain-washing, avoxxing and worse, he's more scared that it could happen to Porrim than he is about himself.

A while ago, he resigned himself to the idea that she was either safe in District Thirteen or that she died long ago. Now she's here, alive and it's a world of opportunities he'd stopped letting himself consider.

"Hey," He starts, hand still on her face. His expression softens from his usual, smug look and he seems genuinely anxious about what he's about to say. "I meant what I said, you know. About fucking up when I let you go- and I'm not just saying it to get in your pants, I just." He shrugs, then he grunts and pulls his hand back to himself so he can look from her to the ground.

"I've never loved someone like I love you. And I actually give a shit about what happens to you after this, but I have no idea what's going to happen after this."
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-09-24 01:55 am (UTC)(link)
Nick came here for a quickie, really, but he's been mulling it over since he saw her. Hell, he's mean mulling it over since he got here, since he got dragged into all of this and had to take a good, hard look at himself and his shitty values. He hates the life he has now, he hates the lonely, empty feeling he gets from it. Porrim is basically a ray of light in a shit storm for him.

He doesn't want to put her on a pedestal or covet her in a way that seems insincere, but he doesn't want to treat her like shit and do her dirty again. If he can fix this one thing in his life, maybe things won't be so bad.

He's not expecting mutual feelings, he's not expecting Porrim to reach out and lift his chin. It's hard to meet her eyes but he tries, and god does he look tired. It's easier to see that the smug, cocky person he's trying to portray is just there to hide his exhaustion.

"Really..?" He can't help it, his brows furrow in confusion. His hands move to encompass hers, rubbing soft circles over her skin. "I'm not gonna pretend that's something I don't want to hear, sugar. 'Cuz I do.. a lot. But you know you can do better than me. Way better."
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-10-02 04:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Nick isn't particularly disheartened to hear that she knows she can do better. He wasn't kidding when he said it and he wasn't saying it for pity, so he's relieved that she's honest. She's not about to pretend he's a stand up guy and she still wants him while understanding that it's a damn stupid thing to want.

He lets himself smile in return, soothed by her fingers on his cheeks. He rarely feels a touch so gentle, and it's been a damn long time. Probably long before the apocalypse.

He returns the favour by sliding his hands up her thighs. It's not necessarily sexual, but it's definitely intimate.

"Maybe this is a dead-end question but, what now?"
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[personal profile] streetsmarts 2017-12-30 01:05 pm (UTC)(link)
For the first time ever, the prospect of sex almost makes Nick nervous. This time around, there are strings attached. Porrim is damn near the only good thing in his life and the only thing he has to look forward to. There's no home for him, there's no family and his friends are mostly dead. It's a lot riding on one person, and Nick is so good at fucking things up.

"Whaddaya wanna do? Go ride a bicycle through the park? Feed the ducks?" He hates that he can't hide the nervous twinge that flickers in his voice. "Are you sure you want your last memories to be, I dunno." He just gestures vaguely at his crotch.