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Don't fret precious my dear, step away from the window, go back to sleep
Who| Initiate and Kain, Justin & Sigma, Elsa, Orc, and Di (all separate times and threads). ALSO OPEN.
What| DEATH AND MURDER ALL THE WAY THROUGH. Also zombie-family.
Where| The forest/orchard, the amusement park, wherever
When| Week Four! And maybe onward???
WARNINGS| Gore, violence, death, desecration of corpses, language, Initiate, so on
When the people start emerging from the fog, wandering, lost, he doesn't think much of it at first. Sometimes they brought motherfuckers in part way through these things. New blood, new faces. He watches a few pass, keeping low. Maybe "thinking nothing of it" is understating. It's hard not to grow a little suspicious when person after person passes with that same blank-faced, glassy-eyed look. He finds himself gripping his weapon a little tighter than before, eyes narrowed.
But then, just as easy, just as quick, he forgets all that. From the fog emerges a new form, this one with horns. He knows those horns. He would know them if all he were a motherfucker struck blind.
His descendant emerges, looking lost, but it ain't that different than how all he'd been, it ain't that different at all. Just like there were harsh administrations done painful is all just--
He's rolled off the food stand roof he'd been perched on and is landing hard on his feet before he even gets the thought in pan to get such actions done. He's pulled like a fish on a hook, feet picking up speed and carrying him along and then he's there, before him, the descendant he'd never meet without the Capitol (and never have with it).
"Gamzee!" He shouts at the kid. "GAMZEE!" His hands are on the kid's shoulders, shaking him. Gamzee doesn't respond. He stares blankly up at the Initiate, like he doesn't recognize him.
"Motherfucker, speak!" He doesn't. Gamzee doesn't make a sound. He just continues staring blankly right on through. There's a strange hollow feeling in him that the Initiate is only half sure he recognizes. His expression makes to twist but he stops it and hardens it all, making himself colder. He slides the pack off his shoulders and slips it on Gamzee easy, kneeling as he does so. He makes sure it's on good, gives Gamzee's shoulders one more pat as he stares into the kid's unseeing eyes. Then, in a few awkward but quick motions, he gets his descendant's bone thin arms wrapped up around his neck and hoists up the kid's legs, carrying the boy on his back. Gamzee's head rests on his shoulder, his curly hair getting up in front of his eyes and in his paint, but not a thing is evinced, no change in expression at all, just a mere blinking.
He knows a place he can keep the boy safe, deep in the Not-Carnival. Safe in a place where all he can make to come back to. For the first time in any arena, he gets the thought in him to try and beat all everyone. But not for his own self. It'll be easy. Just a quick raking of claws along his own throat. Then, maybe, it could work.
In the back of his mind still cries the Alternian rule; he's a detriment, it's dangerous, he's been made invalid, he's just wiggler bratt, he should be culled, it is duty, It's his duty as subjugglator. He should be culled.
Alternia could get pailed.
What| DEATH AND MURDER ALL THE WAY THROUGH. Also zombie-family.
Where| The forest/orchard, the amusement park, wherever
When| Week Four! And maybe onward???
WARNINGS| Gore, violence, death, desecration of corpses, language, Initiate, so on
When the people start emerging from the fog, wandering, lost, he doesn't think much of it at first. Sometimes they brought motherfuckers in part way through these things. New blood, new faces. He watches a few pass, keeping low. Maybe "thinking nothing of it" is understating. It's hard not to grow a little suspicious when person after person passes with that same blank-faced, glassy-eyed look. He finds himself gripping his weapon a little tighter than before, eyes narrowed.
But then, just as easy, just as quick, he forgets all that. From the fog emerges a new form, this one with horns. He knows those horns. He would know them if all he were a motherfucker struck blind.
His descendant emerges, looking lost, but it ain't that different than how all he'd been, it ain't that different at all. Just like there were harsh administrations done painful is all just--
He's rolled off the food stand roof he'd been perched on and is landing hard on his feet before he even gets the thought in pan to get such actions done. He's pulled like a fish on a hook, feet picking up speed and carrying him along and then he's there, before him, the descendant he'd never meet without the Capitol (and never have with it).
"Gamzee!" He shouts at the kid. "GAMZEE!" His hands are on the kid's shoulders, shaking him. Gamzee doesn't respond. He stares blankly up at the Initiate, like he doesn't recognize him.
"Motherfucker, speak!" He doesn't. Gamzee doesn't make a sound. He just continues staring blankly right on through. There's a strange hollow feeling in him that the Initiate is only half sure he recognizes. His expression makes to twist but he stops it and hardens it all, making himself colder. He slides the pack off his shoulders and slips it on Gamzee easy, kneeling as he does so. He makes sure it's on good, gives Gamzee's shoulders one more pat as he stares into the kid's unseeing eyes. Then, in a few awkward but quick motions, he gets his descendant's bone thin arms wrapped up around his neck and hoists up the kid's legs, carrying the boy on his back. Gamzee's head rests on his shoulder, his curly hair getting up in front of his eyes and in his paint, but not a thing is evinced, no change in expression at all, just a mere blinking.
He knows a place he can keep the boy safe, deep in the Not-Carnival. Safe in a place where all he can make to come back to. For the first time in any arena, he gets the thought in him to try and beat all everyone. But not for his own self. It'll be easy. Just a quick raking of claws along his own throat. Then, maybe, it could work.
In the back of his mind still cries the Alternian rule; he's a detriment, it's dangerous, he's been made invalid, he's just wiggler bratt, he should be culled, it is duty, It's his duty as subjugglator. He should be culled.
Alternia could get pailed.
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All of them wondering what happened between the last arenas to mark this change. Her heads ducks and she laughs. It hurts less when she laughs. When she doesn't think about the hunk of flesh she's missing and more about the troll hobbling her along to safety.
I will have to help you fix that at some point
The laugh gets a raised brow. But it doesn't get a question. She's hurt and bleeding out, there in a fucking arena, there's all of their past out there and their futures and just. Fucking. Everything. He'd do the same damn thing were it him.
He even gives a surprised and rueful laugh of his own. Fuck them both and everything about this all.
He takes her to an old worn down bit of Amusement park. A building, one that must've been meant for some kind of ride or show or even knows anymore. It's got barren halls and empty rooms, everything fallen to rot. He takes her to one end, far in the corner, where gate-like bars hang before a small room. As they get to it, his face goes hard again. Inside it, a smaller clown boy sits with a blank face and wide shell-shocked eyes. He hasn't moved an inch.
The Initiate reaches up for the gate and pulls them with a screech, forcing them to give way enough to let them through.
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She squashes it down and looks ahead. Swallowing her discomfort and fear at entering the domain of a clown--that's another thing entirely. Her body stiffens as they wander through empty halls back back. The gate especially makes her pause, pull back. It's not an empty room this time but the person she'll be locked inside with doesn't seem any less strange.
The boy is familiar. A face she saw across a pool, in peaceful sleep, nothing like this. Hollow face, hollow eyes. It reminds her of a person she saw in the mist--one she had ran from. No one she'd known but...
"...Descendant?" Because it had to be, if she'd met the Beforus one, this must be the other. Ever sign a trio it seemed.
"What's wrong with him?"
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He guides the Disciple inside and lets her be set down on whatever thing she wills. Then at last he lets her go and drags the bars back over the opening. Beasts will be coming to sniff out the blood for fresh meat and kill. But they'll have to get their dealing on afterlike.
He looks back at her and shakes his head. "TORTURED. Motherfucking washed with gris-gris most motherfucking unfriendly. AIN'T KNOW. Ain't got a knowing, only guesses done on the familiar. THEY TOOK HIM, BEFORE THIS ARENA BEGAN. Capitol... returned him as such."
And he's been protecting him since he found him, apparently. It would make her the second time he's failed to deal with cullbait when he saw it this round.
He settles down and start digging though his pack. He pulls out candles, three of them, and then digs some more for some pieces of broken wood he'd nabbed earlier. Then he tries to meet her eyes, just to see what all she says or does. Cause she must know, if they do this, it's going to hurt a whole damn lot.
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"If they did that to my lusus, I've not seen it." Of course, she could have missed them. Thought they were a beast, ran away. More importantly, she does not speak of the things they both know. Cullbait indeed, her and him, the pair he is keeping hidden from the danger.
"Do you think they're waiting for you to prove this a trap or something silly? Like you use traps. Subjuggulators don't use traps, they kill first, ask questions later. I mean, you ask more questions than most, but traps aren't your style. If you wanted me dead, you'd have me dead. So I bet they're confused. Waiting to see what happens."
She's rambling, skin pale and clammy. A human might be dead by now but she's still clinging to life with stubbornness. For now. Sudden dismemberment still has an effect.
Her eyes meet his, trails back down to the items and she tries to quirk a smile. She's had pain. It'd pass. Probably.
"Got anything to bite on. I'll be loud if you burn my wound shut."
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He reaches for the jacket at his waist, untying it and passing it over. "ALL WHAT I GOT."
He reaches for his own braid, pulling out scissors from the pack to cut out a fair chunk of the end bits all loose and frayed. He picks up the sticks and starts trying to make a spark, hopefully lighting some of his hair.
"You ain't never heard of inquisition and interrogation, sister?" He says with a laugh on his voice. "DESPITE AS WHAT YOU AND YOUR MOTHERFUCKING LOT GETS THINKING, WE DO HAVE AN ACTUAL GODDAMN JOB AS BEING SUBJUGGLATORS. Half point, we ain't need traps so much as we are them. WOULDN'T SAY IT AIN'T NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE THOUGH. Trapped my own hive. THOUGH THAT HARDLY COUNTS..."
Come on, come on. Just a spark.
"In any damn case, these fuckers wouldn't up and know as what all a subjugglator is. IF THEY DID, THEY'D NEVER ALL HAVE BROUGHT HIM. Too much like their peacekeepers, but actually motherfucking efficient. THEY'D TAKE INSULT THEY UP AND WOULD. If they had half a functioning pan what to do so with. SAY, LET THEM WONDER, I UP AND DO. Let them get a confounding up and on." He decides not to get into thought of lusus. Then he has to think of his own.
A spark. A spark! He drops the sticks and picks up the bit of hair as it burns, light the candles quick as possible. It occurs only then how small these all are. If he gets this done it will still take a long ass time.
It's not as if they got any other choice.
Time to get rid of the stench of burning hair and trade it for burning flesh.
He looks at her real close and careful, up and down, then back to her eyes. "GONNA KEEP FROM TAKING AN EYE OUT AGAIN IF ALL HE DON'T HOLD A SISTER DOWN?" He makes a face that is perfect measurement of how much he does not want that to happen.
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The burning in her brain leaps, then cools again. It's a wonderful terrible feeling, distracts her from the pain, but she pushes it back again, tighter tighter into a space she doesn't acknowledge. Far.
When his eyes meet hers again, her mouth tilts in a half smirk, eyes almost losing their daze.
"I'm more likely to try to claw your eye out if I can't move. Holding me down is just a recipe for long scratches you'll have trouble explaining. Ask Signless."
Then she laughs, a snort somewhere in there.
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"Why don't we motherfucking not and I go without one more daymare in the collection of unspeakable horrors as like what lay in the deeps," He groans, making the face of a petulant teenager. "IF I'D WANTED TO MOTHERFUCKING GET A HEAR ON FOR-- No. THAT'D NEVER UP AND BE THE CASE. Because he doesn't and never will and you motherfucking bitch this is the worst thing you've ever done to me."
But for all that, he realises if she's this far out she's lost way too damn much.
"YOU READY TO GET A CAUTERIZING UP AND ON OR WHAT?" He says as seriously as he can. "Make sure you got all cloth shit up out of the way. AND BITE THAT JACKET AS WHAT HE GAVE."
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"It's a very natural part of life. Clawing the shit out of someone whilst pailing," She starts peeling back the cloth around her open wound and all laughter in her voice dies, "Shit--stop getting stuck."
It's a long moment before she can speak, because she's holding her breath now, pulling fine pieces of thread from dried blood. Her teeth ache when she finally relaxes enough to pull the jacket closer.
"I've changed my mind, I might claw you anyways," She tries to joke, pressing her back flat against the wall, "Okay. Okay."
Jacket bit down upon, hands flat on the floor, eyes pointedly not facing that deadeyed descendant or the troll about to give her more pain than she cares to think about. All in the name of survival. Sometimes, she thinks in a brief moment of clarity, she wishes she could just let it go and die without spending far too much energy clinging to life.
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"Try not to get for his oculars then, that shit hurts like all motherfuck," He mutters. But he's looking down now at the task at hand. Slowly, he reaches for the stump of her leg, trying to lift up underneath it with one hand. With the other, careful as he can, he positions all the candles up closer. He makes sure to sit around them, just in case she kicks out with her other leg and-- really, it was almost inevitable.
He takes a deep breath and grips the top or her leg now too, pushing the bloody end down into the fire. Just to start, he can get the detail of it later. He wonders how it might affect, with his cold skin versus the flame, and he abruptly stops wondering.
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So the searing pain is surprising and immediate. It's like nothing else in her life, a burn so intense she can't think, can't breathe. Nostrils flare, her mouth bites down on cloth not made to handle sharp fangs tearing into it. Her whole body jerks, spasms, kicks and arches out in an attempt to be free of this horror. She has to force herself to take a breath, one, two, three.
The pain is so intense that she doesn't realize what a mistake she's made until she feels tears threaten to fall.
She can't breathe properly and the smell is settling in her hair, her nose, all parts of her smell like death and terror and she can't breathe.
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"FOCUS ON SOMETHING!" He shouts. Because that's all he can think to say or do.
He's not a fucking docterrorist he doesn't know how to heal people, he's not even sure docterrorists know how to heal people, just cull. His whole motherfucking species is only good for culling and that's what he should be doing now but he can't, he promised.
She thrashes but he holds her leg still. He's still a highblood, he's stronger than her. So he keeps going just a little longer, before he lifts, just to see what progress they got (and it's bound to be less than they need). But he doesn't let go. Then he'll never get it going again.
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She screams around her gag, tears streaming down her face as she tries. Tries not to move, tries not to think. Her gut turns over, unhappy, but she can't do that right now. She'll choke, die. She doesn't want to die but she doesn't want to live, not with this searing pain. Not with the smell in the air and her matesprit dying in her minds eye, over and over.
And as abruptly as it started, it stops. Oh the pain doesn't really stop, never really ends, but the intensity fades and she can breath again. Before he can protest, she pulls the gag free and coughs, taking deep shuddering breaths. She feels like she must look terrible. Tearstreaked and trembling, she buries her face in her hands and shakes her head.
"I can't do this. I can't."
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And then she speaks.
"Disciple, you're bleeding too damn much, be all about drawing every motherfucking creature what all is down this arenaside. GONNA DRAW EVERY DAMN THING ON HERE FOR THE CULL AND--" He looks to Gamzee. He needs this place. He needs this spot. It's the only place safe enough for him right now. "It won't last eternal, come on, sister."
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She looks at the candle and hesitantly at the burned mass at the end of her leg. It hurts. It hurts on more levels than he probably understands. Seeing it only makes it worse and she tosses her head back, hits it hard against the wall and can't even make herself wince. Voices are probably telling the story of his execution with relish, telling them why she's in such a panic. She swallows hard. She's not a tragic wounded thing.
"Just--just do it then." She grabs the jacket back close, finding a fresh spot and biting down hard. This time she watches his horns, not him, not what he's doing, but having something to focus on keeps her locked in reality at least.
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They've only got one part, the lower bit, maybe if they just burn out the nerves ends right off the rest will follow smooth. (That's not a miracle even he'll expect.)
But first, finish what all has been started. He forces her leg back down into the flame and he briefly wishes he'd prayed to the Messiahs first because he doesn't know what he's doing and it's getting clearer every minute.
He's done too many inquisitions, executions, interrogations, culls. The screams don't reach him no more. But even still. Even motherfucking still. That's the whole problem up in this it don't feel any different from those things. He guesses maybe some part of him wanted it to.
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She's trembling, trying her best not to scream, not to cry. Her nails dig into the floor, pulling up splinters. It doesn't work, she still screams, but she refuses to cry. She's better, stronger, tougher than this. She's a better troll than the Capitol makes her out to be. She's a tougher troll. The smell in the air makes her want to claw herself free, curl in, wait for death to come, but she's stronger than her fears and her anguish. Than the nausea boiling up inside of her.
Afterwards, she promises herself. Afterwards, when the pain is over. Will the pain ever be over? Will he ever stop. A thought--kill him for the pain, murder--and she shakes her head hard. It's just the pain, just the horror, just her old hatred welling up. Stronger than her base instincts. Stronger.
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But he doesn't know. And he ain't paying attention to her face when all he's got the task at hand, trying to get this done as quick as possible.
He starts on trying to lift a candle to the top part, but to do such he can only use one hand to keep her leg steady. Olive green blood what ain't yet dried tries oozing down on the candles, marking their pale waxy outside, the floor, his hands. He pricks his lip with his own fangs. Just a bit more, just a bit more.
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For several long moments in the midst of this, she's forgotten he's alive and the memories are all there is. In those moments, she's waiting for death, waiting to burn alive too. Ash and dust and pain.
But he moves on to somewhere new. Her eyes flash open, a noise tearing from her throat--and she focuses back on his horns. No, don't get lost in that again. Stronger.
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He wonders where she is, what she's seeing, what she hears. He wonders about an existence that could never be.
He crushes the candle in his hand. He didn't even realise in all this time that he was holding it so tight but it crumbles and the lit part goes out. He didn't mean-- It was delicate but he-- He stars at it for a second, stunned.
"No." He looks down to what's left. Wait. "NO, NO-!" Just one. Her blood put one out, maybe it dripped off his hand or her leg he doesn't know. "Shit. FUCK!" He drops the broken candle, there's nothing else he can do. His ears flatten against his skull and his teeth grind as he scrambles to get the other one and he tells her, "Don't motherfucking move!" All the while.
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Then the pain stops--and he panics. As if she'd move. As if the pain would let her. She drops her head back again, eyes closed and shakes her head.
"Stop, it's not going to help. Can't you tell...?"
Can't he tell how pale she is under a layer of grim from this horrible arena. How she drifts from reality to dream, it can't last. Maybe if she could have clean clothes, some way to fix her leg, water and food--a bed, the things a person needs to recover. If maybe, she was somewhere else entirely, this would have worked.
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"BUT I--"
She's not going to make it. He might as well have tortured her for fun, it would've had more use. He sits back. He moves the candle away from them, to the side, and lets her leg down slow. Then he just sits before her, hands on his knees, claws digging in.
Resigned, he says, "What do you want for me to do?"
She can't stay here. She'll draw the beasts and Gamzee-- Gamzee. He can't lose Gamzee again.
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This is the second time she's had to ask for death. She keeps dying due to dumb mistakes, rain that burns, a beast that snaps off legs without a pause.
"Or I can do it. If you have a knife. You did all you could."
Because it seems cruel to ask the person who's been trying to save you to kill you. Because he's trying so earnestly and it's bizarre and strange and she doesn't know if it's some strange obligation to another that brings them both here in this moment or...or something.
"It wasn't a waste."
It's okay. It's okay to try and not succeed. She doesn't say that, doesn't think it's her place. Some bizarre part of her wants to pap him, shoosh, something, to help. Also not her place--and it'd be weird. Strange. She doesn't pity him, not really. She just wants to help.
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He turns back to her just as she says It wasn't a waste. He stares at her, not understanding how she can say that. What part of this was a waste, what part was good for fucking anything? She's going to die in motherfucking agony. He feels foolish, stupid, and sick with frustration and an even more stupid sort of shame. He shouldn't have bothered, he shouldn't have tried. He's not made for this all.
It wasn't a waste.
He shakes his head. He did promise, Terezi. He promised not to cull, not to lay harm when he could come to her instead-- it really was as much an ashen proposition as she said and he hadn't even realised. And she didn't make him promise to be better, not really, but he tried anyway. And now he's here and he's going to kill Terezi's friend. Never even minding the Signless, the arena long ago bored in his mind. He should've just stuck to the plan, stayed a monster like they wanted. It's what he's fucking good at.
"I AIN'T GET YOU. Don't get how all a sister can be on for saying such."
He's not going to give her the scissors. That's out and not happening. So he shuffles closer until he's leaning in-- in a puddle of her blood and broken candle-- and reaching his hands out like all he's going to hold her face, as if he were making to hold her steady for a kiss. Not in this lifetime.
"MAKE DAMN MOTHERFUCKING SURE YOU COME BACK, DISCIPLE, GOT IT?" He growls at her, staring her dead in the eyes as he does. And then, in a quick, easy, painless movement, he snaps her neck.
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She doesn't have long to really speak before his hands are on her face and she knows what's coming. It'll be quick, it'll be painless. She'll be dead before she can blink, before she knows what's happened. She's quiet for a breath as he speaks.
And when it seems like the time is almost there, she raises her hand and pats his cheek. A thank you perhaps or a dumb impulse like all her dumb impulses the last day or so, with her brain all muddled.
A twist and her hand falls limp to her leg.
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