She stands like a stone in a storm, stoic and starring into the portal. Internally she's screaming louder then she's screamed in months.

All it would take was a few steps and she wouldn't be able to stop herself. She'd go pitching through that portal to...to what? A church full of screaming children? Monsters falling from the sky?

Her father...

She had a chance...didn't she? One chance to put it all right. To save the children, to find her father.

Could the girl who had lost so much, and so many times finally win?

But then her eyes settled on the chain of bodies trying to save...well everything else. This world that had ripped her apart and put her back together. This world that had taught her bravery, loss, love and absolute terror.

She saw Firo, the boy who had saved her life and treated her like family and somehow though the brainwashing still held tight on her images of all those she had considered family bubbled to the surface.

Phil.

Shepard.

Peta and Katniss.

The Initiate.

Mindy.

Effie.

Pruna.

"Fuck."

Turning her back to the portal the word came gushing out of her mouth again and again as she dug her heels into the tile and pushed for Firo's hand.

"Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!"

Springing forward she snagged his wrist and gripped it tighter then a girl her size ought be able to.

As much as she hated it, as much as this world had taken from her it was more her home now then the world she had left behind.

Because in some small way, she had helped shape it.